A Heart in Turmoil

Am losing my mind,

Lost inside my head  

Trying to figure me out,

So bored, fatigued, and tired.

I wish you someone more than myself,

One who won't play around  

With your feelings,

I wish you someone who you will love and  

They too will love you back.

My intentions are pure and honest,

When I care I mean it

When I show support I mean all of it. 

I hurt a lot of people I know

and break a lot of hearts,  

Those genuine hearts.  

You can't blame me for having set my mind, 

To something so far that I keep wondering  

Whether I will make it there or not.  

But what can I say?  

Perhaps I'll find a way to heal,  

The wounds I've caused, the pain I feel,

But for now, I'm lost in thought  

Trying to find a way to be brought.  

Back to the light, back to the day  

Where I can live and laugh and play,  

And maybe, just maybe, find my way  

To a place where I can stay.  

The Muse's Notebook: Mariam Salah